Okay, now I’m feeling it. The move. This morning I tendered my official notice to vacate with my building management, so after 12/15 I’m either in Modesto or I’m homeless. Power and internet scheduled for shutoff on 12/7.
It’s all rolling forward now. I still need to sell the car, line up the mover, finish packing, get the cats checked out for travel and do a thousand other things before the plane leaves in a few weeks. But now that sense of forward momentum is very, very tangible and I feel like I’m just along for the ride.
I lived alone for a very long time before reaching this point, and to be honest I never thought I’d reach a point where it wouldn’t feel natural anymore. My residences in Florida have always felt temporary to me, but never like this – this simply isn’t my home anymore, it’s just a place I’m staying at for a few more weeks. My home’s waiting for me in Modesto. It’s just so very strange, constantly feeling that strong pull towards finally turning off the lights and locking the door and heading out for the airport one last time.
And the forward momentum is just beginning..