It’s back at work today. And last night for a change it was my turn to be the insomniac. At around 1am I’d been tossing and turning for two hours, and the last thing I wanted to do was wake Kristi up – she absolutely needed a good nights sleep before going back to school today – so I quietly slipped away to the guest room and spent another hour tossing, reading, turning, counting sheep, tossing, reading some more.
Eventually I got to sleep.
The last few days around here have been stressful, mainly just because we both have had a lot of anxiety over what awaited us each on our return to work. As I write this, I haven’t heard from Kristi about the situation; right now I’m taking no news as good news. I’ve been sitting here trying to get some answers regarding where $6K in outstanding November billing currently sits, and getting various answers.. not bad news exactly, just a lot of people slowly getting their acts back together after the holidays.
Speaking for myself – and this may change within the hour – the stress is down again. Situations haven’t changed. Work still needs to be done. Risks haven’t disappeared. Uncertainty hasn’t abated. But I think a lot of my stress personally just comes from being disassociated with the everyday rhythm of events. Good news, bad news, dammit, I just want news. It’s being sidelined with only suspenseful thoughts and not being able to do anything about it that drives me mad.
I’m feeling like I’m getting back into the rhythm today. It’s a good feeling.
Now just waiting for Kristi to get home and to tell me just what the heck transpired on her end today.