My grandma’s condition seems to be deteriorating. She was brought back to the hospital on Monday afternoon because she seemed worse. They thought she’d had another silent heart attack but now it’s looking like she didn’t. Her heart is functioning only 5% better than it was before her valve replacement and mentally, she’s not there. She’s confused, sleep deprived, retaining water. She has moments of lucidity but mostly, she dozes in the middle of conversations and can’t really talk much. She did tell me she loved me tonight before we left.
Right now, it’s more waiting. My heart breaks. So many changes in such a short time. It’s more than I want to handle. More than I think I can handle. Mostly, I’m just sad. Profoundly sad.